Blue Skin

Blue Skin

 

Here I go showing my blue skin!

I am going to begin the conversation of holistic health and the three overarching components: mind, body, and spirit.

One thing I have come to know for certain. Is that I do not know much of anything. I do however have a burning desire to learn and grow as an individual. To do this, I have to be willing to take off my masks to show my blue skin. Not to be afraid to share my candid perspective of the information being digested. Maybe I am right. Maybe I am not. You can make up your own mind. Through the exchanges I have with you, my readers, and through my own personal reflection, I can begin to put the puzzle pieces together of what it truly means to be healthy and share my knowledge and experience with other people. Hopefully, someone will benefit through this new blogging journey of mine.

We show a certain perspective of ourselves to others. Sometimes this picture has cropped out the dumpsters in hopes of not being judged or feeling vulnerable. I know I am guilty of this!

Right now, I am exploring ideas of commitment and vulnerability. I have recently been listening to Tony Robbin’s audiobooks, Unlimited Power and Awakening the Giant Within, and Brene Brown’s audiobook, Daring Greatly. Conveniently, I also have a paper due soon in my Naturopathic Medicine philosophy class. We are to reflect on our commitment to Naturopathic Medicine principles.

Naturopathic PrinciplesThe word commitment is used passively. It is not until we truly commit to something that things begin to change. Challenges will a rise. Unless we are truly committed to what we set out to accomplish, it is too easy to just flow away from our desire destination.

Commitment brings clarity in our direction. You may not know how you will get there. Once you have made the firm decision, it is like it has becomes apart of you. I know from experience it is so challenging to be something you are not.

I have dreamed of becoming a doctor since I was a preteen. I was committed to becoming a doctor. So much that, I pushed the gas pedal down and graduated with my undergraduate degree at 19 with almost 150 credit hours. It took me 8 years after having all the perquisites to get into medical school to matriculate. There was so many things I had to learn about life and myself. The universe presented certain challenges that I needed to be overcome to be ready for the role I desired.

When I was 23/24, I hit rock bottom in my life and health. Because of this, I was forced to move back home with my mother. She did not have much to offer, yet she offered me what she had with open arms. I had a roof over my head and food in my belly. I had no idea how my massive amounts of bills were going to get paid or medical insurance to pay for my pricey medications. All I knew, was nothing was worth my life.

This is not a story about what I was going through health-wise. This is a story about commitment (and vulnerability, I am sharing this aren’t I?). When my parents got divorced when I was a teenager, we lost our house and had to move into a what was my father’s old church. This was a military medical office building that was renovated to be a church. It was never remodel to be a home. Cooking was always a chore because there was no real stove. I do not know how my mom managed to do it for so long. This is where we lived and the place was falling apart. I had no money to pay my bills and was not physically able to work a regular job.

I made a decision that I was going to fix up this house and sell everything we had inside. I had quite the task ahead of me. I had no idea how I was going to make this happen. I had no money or resources. I just knew that it had to happen. So what did I do? I started knocking and researching ways to make it possible.

It took me a year before things actually started to change. Eventually, I found the right people that ended up changing our lives forever. The person that had the most impact on us was Larry Osbourne. He was the head of the Baptist Church Men in Red Springs North Carolina. For whatever reason, he was moved to help our family get back on our feet. They raised money for building materials and provided the labor and expertise we needed in order to fix our place up.

Through this process, we were touched by so many people who offered their time, money, expertise, and support. It was so overwhelming the first day when we opened the door to the Baptist Church Men to begin working. I could not believe that so many people had shown up to help US! Who were we to receive such help?

Then there is Larry Osbourne. He has a story of his own. He is a man that is an inspiration to me. He was in liver failure and in desperate need of a liver transplant. Even though his health was severely compromised, with whatever energy he could muster each day, he was dedicated to his mission with the Baptist Church Men. My mom and I were on the receiving end of his heart of gold.

Check this video out that the Baptist Church Men made of their project working with us to raise funds for their mission. If you ever feel like donating to a cause, they are a good one.

Like them on Facebook! Visit their webpage!

What you see in this video was the start. In order, to get this place fix up, it took commitment. There were many times it would have been so easy for me to walk away or surrender to being defeated even after we started to get help.  This was not going to happen!!! It was not just about me anymore. I wanted a better life for my mother. She had/has sacrificed so much for me and my brother to live a better life. There were so many times that I had to recommit myself to this project for an array of reasons.

It was a slow process that required lots of patience and perseverance. After I moved back home, it took us three years to change the situation we had found ourselves in. Looking back now, three years really is not that long. However, it seemed like an eternity when it seemed like there was no way out.

Flash forward. Now, I am realizing my dreams as a Naturopathic medical student. We sold the place last August to a wonderful church. My mom moved out here with me in Arizona to begin her next chapter of her life. Drum rolls please!!!! Larry is also doing well!!! He got his liver transplant around the same time we sold the place.

There is something to be said for being committed and focusing your energy on a desire outcome. There is always hope! There are amazing people in this world! I believe in happy endings!

Take home message:

Show your Blue Skin! Be bold! Be Vulnerable! Be Committed!

There is a quote I like by William H. Murray that reflects the power of commitment.

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back.

Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too.

All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.

A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.

Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”

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